When I was 18 I had ideas about how my life would turn out and this path was one I never could have imagined. In fact, I vividly remember thinking that I would end up in Oregon as a famous painter and activist. I remember thinking that I would eat all organic, live off of my own garden, essentially join a commune, experiment with different types of meditation and probably smoke a lot of weed.
I accomplished a few of those things but not all. Sometimes I wish I could look through a lens and see what my life would be like had I become that person. When I reflect on my life I feel like I'm looking through a kaleidoscope and I love it. To say that I've enjoyed everything I've done would be an understatement. I have loved fully and been broken by that same love. I have created life. I have lived out of my car for a period of time. I have traveled and lived somewhere beyond my motherland that is Utah. I have seen the beauty of the country that has entangled my heart and mind with its long branches.
The best part is, that it's not over and now I get to introduce this beautiful life and world to my daughter whose eyes are so full of hope and wonder. I have so many dreams for her and hope so much that the world as we know it changes so she never has to face discrimination for her sexual identity, gender, or religion. I hope that she too, becomes a prisoner of hope so that one day we can all live in equality.
For now, I will wrap my arms around this life I have created and embrace every little detail that I love so much about the here and now. This moment happens to be one of my favorites. A small, sweet hand wrapped around a toy that is so simple yet so beautiful in her eyes.
Promise me you'll write more. You do it so beautifully! Loved this
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